when the shit gets shittier

well..
the fart gets smellier..

heh heh heh..
my lame attempt at a corny joke..

whatever

come on... i had all of two hours of sleep
then bad news
then anxiety because of some uni fuck ups
then worked my eyes out the rest of the day
as in Stared at the computer screen reading alot of fine print
gimme a break..
i deserve one..
a BIG one

but perhaps more than me..
the ones who the bad news concerned..
deserve the rest

anxiety is no fun
bad news is no fun
fear of the future is definitely no fun

but you know what?
if in all my years of living i have learnt nothing but..
i have learnt this

when the day gets shittier
and shittier
and shittier
and shittier
and shittier
and doesn't look like it wants to get shittier
but does...

just
hang
on
and remember
One step At a Time

it is amazing what a huge well of energy from nowhere can drive us on
even though we feel there can not possibly be any more left
i have reached the bottom of that well many many times in life
or so i thought
but i am still here
so there must be something left

and my dear babies...
if i could go on..
so can you

love
chi