when i am sick

i have a weird flu bug
it activates itself when i get into office
and deactivates when i get out
weird bug...
or maybe its just an allergy...
to work
HAHA

anyways
when i am sick
specially with the flu
i become very irritable (and sleepy)
and when i become irritable
i become even more tactless than usual
(not to say i am soooo tactful normally)
and so when i become even more tactless
i become oso..
more truthful?

WARNING..
unnice things to read ahead
if ur name starts with Y
then u should decide whether or not you wish to proceed
warning warning
very brutally opinions ahead
don't say i din't warn u all ar...

anyway first.. why did i decide to put this out here?
why did i decide to put it in public and not via more..
personal (secretive?) channels?

cos 1) in all honesty i dunno the girl all that well
2) i feel its relevant to lots of ppl out there
3) i ain't putting no names
4) if u know who you are then you know
5) if you don't know then you don't know
6) i am disturbed enough to put it out here

its something i've been mulling about for some time
thinking,
should i talk about it or not
should i?
should i not?

but events in the past few weeks,
the ppl i've talked to
the things i have heard and seen
things behind closed doors
made me realise
heck.. there's lots of us out there
its relevant to many ppl

so here we go
my sincere and humble apologies if this upsets anyone (particularly the ladies)
but i have to talk about an injustice i have been observing lately.

don't say i didn't warn u! ;)

first a little background

so big guy
you said you loved her
but you found another (who you liked but hadn't managed to date yet)
apparently you were very nice about it
you decided to do the right thing by your so called love of your life (the lady)
left her all alone crying and heart broken

so big guy
what did you say?
we have been so close
we are such good friends
i don't want to lose your friendship?
let's still stay friends (even after my betrayal)

well i think..
big guy if you wanted to do right by her in the first place
you wouldn't have let your eyes and other body parts wander
and don't say its natural
plenty of real men out there can
why can't u? dick to big to fit in ur ass?

so what happened after?
my dear lady of course you had to agree
of course you loved him to pieces
and it made you very sad
but of course you would still be friends
you would pine
he would share his love
you would cry
he would fuck (others not you)
you would find your bed empty
he would not

then the worst part?
the thing that bothers me?

this friend business
honey,
how can i put this nicely
no way so here goes.
i wish you could stop being his ego pillow

truly
it is a big ego boost to the 'big man'
to have a girl pining away for him
(and he knows it)
and she puts it out there for the world to see
(in the "big man's"other guys may read it and think "man, that doode is one (f)lucky son of a.. )

dear girl
you are a beautiful queen and you are worth more than that louse
yes louse

although i know him not at all
but you know what?
thinking about it... made me realise
it doesn't matter whether he is a nice guy or not
it doesn't matter that he is otherwise highly likeable
cos his actions to you..
spell L-O-S-E-R

why?
dear all,
you know we bumped into each other once not too long ago?
then we had a quick chat
and she mentioned that he is coming down
and staying in her house
no, i did not miss the flash of pain

you see
he gets her (the queen) as a 'friend'
meaning
he gets all the benefits of having her as a girlfriend (as she still behaves to him as one minus the touch parts and the i love you parts)
BUT
he dun got to give her no status and he is free to fuck all (literally)

and she?
gets to pine
treat him like the king he is not
and get pretty much, well...
get nothing in return

me am bargain hunter
and looking left and right..
that isn't a fair deal however you look at it.

its an injustice
and it makes me disgusted to the bone that there is a dick (prick) out there
who is able to get away with it

oh yes, you little lout with the wandering eyes(prick)
i know its a very big ego boost for you
and its all sweet roses for you
but you know what?
its probably cos u have a small dick and you have to spread the 'love' to make it grow

i can understand her (if i am not being too presumptious already)
the why she does this,
the how she may not realise,
so to cut a long story short
here is a dedication to you
celine dion's "I love you but I hate you"

and then i would follow up with a dose of
Christina aguilera's "can't hold us down"

and another dose for good measure
Christina aguilera's "car wash" time for the girls to parrrrrrrrtttttttteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
and nop,
pricks dicks losers not invited (pricks!)
real men only welcome

why do i get so upset?
hmm...
i've been thinking about it a long time
maybe because apart from the other bitch's aunty
this girl is the only one so far who has inspired me to do something
that is
and here comes my announcement
to join UNICEF

i've always liked UNICEF
been a big fan and all
and yeah..
she made me realise
why don't i join the damn thing i like so much
so i'm taking steps towards it ;)

and that ends the bitching session of the day
more to come?
of course..
don't see my flu going away soon
HAH (chiu)

oh yes
and i nearly forgot
they say talk is cheap
its easy to talk and not to do
i know it very well
perhaps..
too well..
god give me the strength to know this about myself if i ever need to
(touch wood) (and i hope i never need to)
god give me the strength not to fall in the same trap ever.

dear queen
may you find a real man who is worth every inch of you
may the louse not get the lousy slut he's after (and every other slut after that)
may the louse come crawling back to you
may he stand in the pouring rain crying for you under the umbrella in nothing but his ah beng shorts
may your new real man come to kick him away
may you have the satisfaction of seeing he come crawling back all the same
may you still have the sweet feeling of pitying him the way he probably does you now.
may he lose the queen in his life
to a real king who'll take care of her the way real men are s'posed to.

have i been too crude?
to brash?
to harsh?

well..
had to get it out of my system..
don't like dirt in there like that louse.

(a thousand humble apologies once again)

anyway i'm fully prepared for the wrath of the lady involved
should you think i have gone too far
well..

wouldn't be able to get over myself if i did not say it today
and its all i can say

the louse?
like... i care?
HAHAHA big joke