the return of the cat (Part II)

i would have told the story earlier
except i was protecting some one close to me
i should have come out with the truth earlier
except i was very confused at the time
but as the saying goes
better late than never

as i was thinking one day
why does this bother me so much?
i came to realise that this was the first time
that someone had bullied me
and i let them get away with it
not only scott free
but ALSO smelling of roses
while i sat there with the dead stinky ol' cat

that was alright i suppose by itself,
sometimes for the greater good ppl have to live with silly cats that don't belong to them
except
i had to tell an untruth
which bothered me so
because most who know me well
know that i don't like lying
much less being forced to tell one

that could be alright together with the first i suppose
because i was protecting someone
except
i realised,
this person did not stand up for me when he should have
he did not protect me much apart from sitting there taking the blows
and so why should i protect him?
why should i protect someone who did not protect me when he should have?

THAT too could be alright together with the other two i suppose
because what did i want him to do?
he was caught in the middle (which i throughly understand was not his fault and there was not much he could do in between a rock and a hard place)
except
i realised,
here was someone abusing me
and no one was standing up for me
and everyone was just letting this person get away with it!

THAT and THAT before could be alright i suppose
i mean,
what do i expect? a knight in shinig armour?
except
i realised,
this person was bullying me
and if i didn't stand up for myself
i would be the one in the end who bullied myself
by allowing myself to knowingly be abused in such a fashion.

if there were a point in that
then perhaps it would be ok
but left and right i looked
but there wasn't much point in that
except to save the pride of my bullier
which i thought wasn't very much of a good point.

and so the sum of all the parts made me realise
i don't want to be bullied
and if no one was going to stop this guy from bullying me
then i have to stop him myself
i have to stand up for myself
and let him have his cat back.

and this post too is getting rather long so i am going to describe the cat in the next.
the cat

keep watching this space.