after a long leave of absence

first of all..
to certain parties out there..
i would very much like to say
IN YOUR FACE FUCKHEADS!
HAHAHAHA

next of all i'd like to say
YES YES YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

see...
if you thought that a certain person was always better at writing
i guess you just didn't understand the dynamics between us

if you thought
i stayed away because a certain other draconian person wanted to keep me out of it
i guess you just didn't understand the way i work
and that i am not seeking attention in that way
and that nothing that person could do could keep me away if i really believed in what i wanted to do

if you thought this work got out
because i had certain relationships
well..
not at all

this work came out because it was good
period.

the person getting it out didn't even have an inkling who i was
so it came out on its own merit

so to all those who think the only way to get work out is thru
BODEKING
sorry
i don't agree
and my work didn't come out thru BODEKING

and to those who are beginning to think i had an ulterior motive when i wrote it
no i didn't
i wrote it in a flash in the middle of the night
because it had to come out
and i truly believed in what i said
and felt it could make a difference
i didn't even think it would get out
but i felt if i don't give it a chance
i would be guilty of not doing something when i could

anyway
i'm glad it came out because of the people who it could affect
and on a personal note
i'm glad it came out cos it just goes to show some of the things i believe in are true
and it is not all naive unacheivable thinking

and to those who might come back to bodek me
i know what you want
i know who you are
i won't help you on stupid aimless self fulfilling quests like that
if you want it out cos of fame and glory
sorry... wrong person
i still won't be bothered with you
keep away

anyways dispensing with these silly people
for the sake of the children involved
i hope someone will pick up the thread and carry it on
i am only allowed to start it 
someone else needs to continue it so that real change can occur

cryptic is it not?
not if you are in the know ;)

and now..
the girl has to go back to writing stuff that will get her a piece of paper
but stuff that won't change the world
in other words
the boring stuff
:P